Still fighting for you my darling

Hey princess, hope you're ok and enjoying life my darling.

I miss you a lot my dear, sometimes i think it'll get easier but it seems the other way around.

Today i was in court again, your mum wants to go to the US with you, I think that for now it'll be a good idea so you can be looked after by your extended family and play with your cousins. In fact i always thought that growing up in the MidWest and being close to family would be good for you but your mum didn't think so then. She has now changed her mind. You're too young to make your own decisions so you'll have to rely on others to make the right decisions for you.

For now i'm kept out of your life but so you know it's not my choice, in fact i would spend every hour of the day with you princess but trust me it'll change. Hopefully soon we can spend some time together and have fun.

Today i asked to see you twice a year if you went to live in the USA but your mother doesn't agree, she doesn't want us to have contact. She did however 'offer' Skype calls with you once a week. It is obviously not acceptable and i'll do all i can for us to have some quality time together.

Your grandma Fatima and grandpa Mario asked me to put a quote in your blog, they also love you and miss you so much my darling.

I love you so much my dear and will always fight for you.

Always

Dad

Hope you are having sweet dreams....

You should be asleep now darling.... you wont remember this but so you know i used to put you to bed most nights my darling.
I would sing songs in Portuguese (sometimes in English too) and you'd fall asleep on my chest, in my arms.

I love you my dear

Dad

Just wanted to tell you....

I wanted to make sure i told you today.....How much I Love You
And it is for sure a lot my angel
I love you
Dad

At some point in your future you might look back and wonder why I wasn't there all the time, and for now lets just call it "circumstance", but please - I hope that you understand that even if I was not right there every moment in person, I was always with you, and I always carried you with me....

Ava,

I want a better world for you, i do not want you to ever make the mistakes I have made, or feel any of the pain i have ever felt. 

I know you will have your trials and your triumphs, and I hope I can help you celebrate the good times, and I hope you will take my hand when I offer it to help you after you have stumbled....

I wish I could make today different, and I am not giving up, and I hope I never do...

I want you to know how much you make me smile, and how much I love you...it's not every day that I get the chance to tell you... although I have tried to make it that way... and sometimes this is the only way to let you know...

But I do love you so much...  and you are my hope...

I love you little one...

Dad

I LOVE YOU MY CHILD

If I could bring you a world full of happiness, I would. If I could take your sadness and pain and feel them for you, I would. If I could give you the strength to handle the problems that this world may have for you, I’d do that, too. There is nothing that I wouldn’t do for you to bring laughter instead of tears into your life...

I can’t give you happiness, but I can feel it with you. I can’t take away all your hurts in this world, but I can share them with you. I can’t give you strength when you need it the most, but I can try to be strong for you.

I can be there to tell you how much I love you. In times when you feel you need to reach out to someone, I can be there for you, not to change how you feel, but to go through these times with you.

When you were little, I could hold you in my arms to comfort you but you’ll never be too grown up for me to put my arms around you. You are so special to me, and the most precious gift I could have ever received was you on the day you were born.

I Love You!

You are always on my mind

Hello my little angel, early this week i was taken to see a play called Priscilla Queen of the Desert.

There is an act where they sing a song called 'Always on My Mind' and I could not stop thinking of you.

It's about a man who re-encounters his soon after some years and his son asks him to sing an Elvis Presley's song. 

This is the act:

One day you and I are going to sing together my love.
I Love You and miss you loads.

Dad